Hi everyone. It’s Hilary. This is my blog, Mom’s for Xanax. I have neglected it for the past month. Thanks for your emails and messages- all is well!
Earlier this week I was talking with my dear friend (we were running on the treadmill side-by-side so we were probably more like gasping, or mumbling, but it resembled the English language).
I was lamenting the end of summer. This is unusual for me because I hate the heat, I fret over the proper SPF level, and have a general distain for swimming pools. All this aside, I am sad to see the summer go.
My friend, who is a very good listener (and when you are on the treadmill, it is so much better to be the one listening) asked me why I thought this was. I came up with two reasons.
The first is that school is starting next week and I am sending both boys off to preschool. BOTH of them. They are getting so big. It is happening too fast! I am going to miss my buddies, even if it is just two long days a week. Poor Coco is not going to know what to do without her brothers to follow around. I am certain I am very boring.
The second reason why I am sad to see summer go was not as easy to articulate. What it boils down to is this: I took advantage of three months of doing nothing except what I wanted to do, when I wanted to do it. It sounds very selfish, doesn’t it? But my dear friend summed it up in a much nicer way- she said I took the opportunity to “REBOOT”. That is EXACTLY what I did!!!
I said no to things I would usually say yes to doing but didn’t really want to...then curse the fact that I said yes when I knew I shouldn’t have. I ran...a lot. We splashed at the water park on Friday afternoons. I cuddled with the kids in bed at night when it was well past all of our bedtimes. We went on vacation, and visited family. I cut my hair...short. I quit reading two different novels in the middle because I just wasn’t enjoying them. We ate a lot of Golden Spoon frozen yogurt. I quit dusting. We tried every fruit snack known to man. I moisturized.
Is it any wonder why I don’t want the summer to end? The school year brings schedules and responsibilities, the two things that I usually relish and find comfort in. But this summer I realized that only doing what is expected of you isn’t always very satisfying.
Alas, we will go back to school next week. We will be punctual and appropriately dressed. Our lunches will be nutritious. I will dust the house.
But I will still run a lot, and cuddle too long, and stop reading books if I don’t like them, because what good is a reboot if you don’t retain the lesson you learned from it?
And what a glorious
reboot summer, it was!